Wednesday, June 16, 2010

This Blog Is Better Late Then Never….
Current mood:Ill

I have not been on much still very sick. Tammy and I snuggled to some southpark she fell asleep then I got up because I was in severe pain. I am feeling better compared to last week but all day I been in really bad pain. My organs are all in pain like tonight I had really bad pains in my chest felt like my heart was fluttering….and well between that and the back spasms I just cant sleep tonight.

I wish I could feel better but I have little strength all I can do is wait for the next test or drs appt to come around. Tammy almost took me to the ER the other night but then I started to feel a little better. I been very careful about what to eat tonight had spinach ravioli….cheesy white sauce….grapes etc just to keep myself from having another attack.

I just know that I still feel full all the time….when I breath I am in pain….my ulcers in my intelstines are just stabbing into me also like today had to hold my stomach while grocery shopping because of the sharp pains. Well at least tonight I am medicated it helps but it only cuts the pain down to half if that. So that is where whether something is ruptured who knows half of what we eat isnt all that good for you period. So I am just trying to eat a bit healthier sadly not sure its that because i am the type of guy who eats all sorts of cuisine.

I know I know here you are reading my blog to get juicy details and here I am giving you my medical transcripts haha. Well who knows maybe it will attract a few hot blonde nurses and hopefully it doesnt attract some hairy nurse who plans on shoving a needle into my ass. It definitely is not something id enjoy seeing as i fade off to sleep.

Can you imagine I get some home nurse who comes over only to find out that she found her job from Craigslist or something hahaha id be screaming nooooooooooooooo worst nightmare I tell ya. How about this scenerio…..she is one of those fake type of nurses then she says after my shift for a small donation this can be all yours ummm yeah. Not sure what would be worst the pain I am having now or the pains I get from having a heart attack after she list her menu. Kind of like these hookers on CL who last year on Thanksgiving said we want to be fed a real turkey dinner then afterwards you pay us for the dessert.
…Tammy and I are trying to have a little one of our own. I hope we can make that dream come true for eachother. Although I feel like I am 80 I will always be young at heart. It sucks being ill i guess that is the word I should use.
Other then that I been laying down allot and sometimes I am in to much pain to even do that let alone be at the computer. So do not think I am ignoring anybody here I am not. I wish I could be here working on my radio show or site updates but its hard last week was worst then this week but this week I have many new pains since my attack last week and they are just getting worst. I woke up and could not believe how tender…and how much pain was all around the front of me.
On a good note despite all of that i been trying to laugh as much as possible and play with the kids. I get so excited when tammy gets home from work…thursday ill take her to work…then have to drive all over doing errands. The traffic has been bad in vegas considering the hot weather is here everybody is out and about. I hate the heat it makes me feel worst to be out in really.

I will be going out to cali in a couple months to get a few things from storage. I hate having everything in storage but Tammy shares all her things with the boys and I. She has taking good care of me the last couple of weeks I am so happy somedays just to see her smile or twinkle in her eyes. We have so many fun times together I just wish i felt better so i guess in due time as long as it dont get worst then i am not up the creek without a paddle yet.

I had a pretty long weekend took me a couple days to recover its like one of those things all the kids are sleeping or away….and your like ahhhhhh finally some me time. So I spent that me time playing final fantasy 13 i am a pretty big fan. I added a ps3 widget to my profile tonight as well. I do play online if anybody wants to pass sometime.